14 Months

14 months in absence.

What made me wanna write again?

I sakit hati when my colleagues discussing about 'how to be a sharp shooter on your first night'. Yeah you heard *or rather read* it right.

Kadang I secretly wish that at least one of them placed in my shoes.

But then, I saw the book that I bought last month from www.mphonline.com but haven't had the heart to read it.

 

Anak, 

Jika Tiada, 

Bersangka Baiklah Dengan Allah

Simple, yet very powerful.

I flipped through, as per my usual scanning reading method and found a page that really capture my eyes and my heart.

So, do not despair. Allah knows what's best for us, even though we think it is best for us.

One question I find intriguing is WHY WE WANT A CHILD?

Hm.....

Unsuccessful

Haha.

It was not the perfect time for me to get pregnant. Aunt Flow came on last Saturday while I have none of the menstrual pad. Luckily there was one in my handbag.

Since my husband used the car to work, I bravely asked him to buy me the pads. And surprisingly he said YES! Dahlah beli kat Petron. hihi.

Libresse takde stok, so he bought for Kotex non-wing Night Pads. Because I forgot to ask him to search for wing pads.

Tapi tak bestlah Kotex. In my second day of menses, I have to change my pad every 2 hours. Whenever I feel uncomfortable, it is the telling signal I need to change it.

Actually, Kotex ni a bit shorter in size. So easily full to the brim. With Libresse, for second day, 1 pad can last for 3.5 hours until I feel uncomfortable.

Dahlah second day tu we all balik kampung. My father-in-law was admitted to hospital due to ashtma, so memang kena balik la. Nasib baik pergi visit him in afternoon session that starts from 4.30pm.

It was er... messy la kan. And after visiting, husband decided to travel back to KL. Sekejap je kat hospital but I ended up changing it twice.

So, after this Kotex will be off listed in my list of pads. There's Libresse and er... Oh only Libresse.

The best menstrual pad so far for me.

Anyway, couldn't wait for fertile window. Hihi.

Hello 2015

Wow. It has been more than a year I didn't write anything in this blog.

In fact, tried 3 times to get the password correct! Haha.

To those who email me and did not any response, this is why I didn't reply.

And it has been almost 6 months I didn't contact the makcik urut. *sigh. My bad, I know.

Nope, I am still trying to conceive. I tried HABBATUS SAUDA. It is in a capsule. First tried the oil ones. The difficulty to get it, (read : Lazy), makes me tried the black seed itself.

Oh, did you know, Habbatus Sauda is actually black seed? Silly me, I didn't know it.

I took it for three months in a row starting end of October 2014.

The first side effect was badan panas. I read about it. It was just to inform you that the blackseed is working in your body. Melancarkan darah. So that's why you will feel a little bit of heaty body.

The remedy is just take more fluids. That is more water. And really, you should drink water according to your weight. The heavier you are, the more fluids needed by your body.

Then on 4th November 2015, my menses came. And my oh my, banyak giler on the second day. Bayangkan, I have to change the pad for every 2 to 3 hours. And also berketul-ketul. That's why kena tukar cepat. Memang kerja I ni banyak duduk depan komputer. So everytime bangun, memang banyak la. Kena cepat-cepat pergi toilet.

Second month pun sama jugak. Sampai I minta MC because I have a meeting to attend. And you knowlah meeting, sitting down aje for 3-4 hours. Memang confirm bocorlah.

Third month, my menses datang tanpa tanda. That means, no bloating, no PMS, only moody aje. And I didn't even prepare to have my menses masa I seminar kat Langkawi. Kelakar gila. And it was really on the dot. Exactly 30 days. Alhamdulillah.

But,

For February 2015, I belum period lagi. Anddddddd, I was hoping I am pregnant. Takut nak check UPT. As of today, 18 days late according to My Calender.

Kindly pray for me to mengandung right now.

Perubahan ketara ialah I tak suka masak. Malas menjadi-jadi.

Ya Allah, perkenankanlah doaku.

Contact Number *Updated*

I will update this as I am asking her permission to publish her number.

Sabar ya sayang-sayang semua.

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I am so sorry for delaying this important information. Permission needed before the reveal.

Just like JayFarhana, I would like to stress out a few rules before I can give you the number. Bukan nak susahkan semua, just kita kembalikan diri kepada Allah Yang Maha Esa. Semua ini adalah kehendak-Nya. Ingatlah, bahawasanya HIDUP ini sebenarnya adalah UJIAN.

Saya bersyukur kerana melalui 'sharing' saya tempohari telah membuka hati rakan-rakan sekalian. Bukan saya yang menggerakkan hati semua, hanya Allah lah yang berkuasa. Semua ini ada hikmah-Nya. Kita hanya perlu berfikir dan bersyukur.

Saya mohon kepada rakan-rakan, buatlah perkara-perkara ini dan patuhilah syarat ini.

Yang pertama, saya mohon semua, termasuk diri saya, untuk solat TAUBAT. Mohon keampunan dari Allah. Berdoa bersungguh-sungguh sampai menangis. Mohonlah keampunan dari Allah. Semoga kita dimudahkan untuk melakukan perkara ini.

Yang kedua, saya mohon semua, pohonlah restu dari SUAMI sebelum menjalani rawatan ini. Percayalah, restu suami sangatlah penting. Kalau boleh, selagi belum suami izinkan, selagi itu kita pujuk untuk benarkan. Biar suami isteri bersama-sama menjalani rawatan. Biar suami tengok kesungguhan isteri inginkan SIHAT zahir dan batin. Biar isteri melihat betapa bersungguh-sungguhnya cinta hati mereka menyokong usaha TTC ini.

Yang ketiga,  saya telah memohon kebenaran Makcik yang membantu kami. Cuma beliau memohon hanya Whatsapp sahaja kepada beliau. Tak perlu telefon, biarlah beliau yang tentukan. Bukan apa, takut-takut beliau sedang merawat dan panggilan kita mengganggu beliau yang sedang membantu orang.

Yang keempat, saya mohon agar semua berikan maklumat berikut kepada saya untuk saya sampaikan kepada beliau. Emailkan ya kepada tryingtoconceive2012@gmail.com.

1. Nama isteri

2. Nama suami

3. Nama ibu isteri

4. Nama ibu suami

5. Lokasi

Yang kelima, untuk makluman beliau tinggal di SHAH ALAM. Proses perubatan dilakukan di rumah 'pesakit'. Lagi bagus kalau ada en suite bathroom dalam bilik. Maksud saya, macam Master Bedroom kan ada bilik air dalam tu? Nanti beliau akan terangkan proses rawatan, cara, penyediaan bahan dan yuran.

Yang keenam, saya doakan agar usaha kita semua diberkati Allah serta dimudahkan segala urusan kita di dunia dan akhirat. Ameen.

Email ya. tryingtoconceive2012@gmail.com.

Magnet

Something I learnt yesterday.

In order to succeed in life, you have to be a MAGNET.

Magnet - Menarik perkara-perkara yang kita mahukan.

Magnet keberkatan, magnet kebahagiaan, magnet kesihatan, magnet kekayaan dan magnet kejayaan. Di dunia dan akhirat.

Understand the M-A-G-N-E-T.

M - MATLAMAT/GOAL SETTING

A - ATTRACTION/ATTITUDE

G - GIGIH/GO GETTER

N - NETWORK

E - ELMU/EMOTION

T - TINDAKAN & TAWAKAL

Rendang New Chef

I am so lucky today. Asked my husband to cook Rendang Ayam and he agreed. Yeay.

I cuma perlu siapkan bahan aje. Simple. Bawang merah, serai, halia dan kunyit dikisar.

Kemudian masukkan 2-3 sudu cili kisar. Masukkan ayam. Baru nyalakan api.

Biar sampai ayam kering, maksudnya macam masak. Baru masukkan santan.

Hampir kering baru masukkan garam, gula dan kerisik.

Very simple. Kenapa I blog kan?

Nanti senang kalau Chef Husband masak lagi di masa hadapan.

Hihi. Pasti sedap. Insyaallah ;)

New Discovery

I found a new great discovery.

My husband can COOK. In fact, he is wayyy better than me. Ever since my episode of fever and one month anniversary of alternative treatment, he resumes the duty of cook.

This year, for Eidul Adha, we did the 'korban'. For every peserta, they will get one part of organ dalaman, one part of ribs (yummeh) and meat. The meat will depend on the total of daging divided by three.

So, my mum helped me to pressure-cooked the ribs. Well she knows her daughter well. Husband pulak dah tak sabar nak makan. And I can't cook. So dia volunteer untuk memasak dengan syarat I teach him.

Simple Sup Tulang aje. Tumbuk bawang dan halia. Ketul Serai. Then tumis kayu manis, buah pelaga 5 biji, bunga lawang 1 kuntum dan bunga cengkih 3 kuntum. Masukkan bawang dan halia. Serai. Tumis sampai naik bau. Masukkan air. Biar mendidih. Then masukkan tulang yang telah direbus. Biarkan mereneh on small fire. Dalam 20-30 minit. Then only masukkan garam. Masukkan tomato 2-3 biji yang dibelah 4. Masukkan celery kalau suka.

But, my husband The Chef, kata tawar lepas masukkan garam. And he asked my opinion in putting Kiub Lembu Knorr. Bila dah masukkan, again rasa. Dia cakap "Barulah sedap". Haha.

I only ate the soup for dinner. Tetapi, dah tinggal 3 ketul aje. Untuk share berdua. Merajuk I.

Drama Queen- "Abang tak ingat kat ayang ke masa lunch tadi?"

Jawapan dia "Lapar lunch tadi. Sedap pulak Sup ni. Tu yang tambah banyak kali tu".

But memang way better than what I cooked. Lepas fever tu, I did cooked Kuah Lodeh for Eid. tapi tak jadi. Cair sikit. Rasa pun out walaupun my family ate it like beria-ria.

Cooked Sup Tulang 2 periuk kenduri untuk lunch di Institut Tahfiz SABA, the place where the korban was held. Okaylah.

This morning, husband goreng ayam. Tapi I lari masuk bilik. Cannot stand the smell of ayam goreng.

Officially, husband  is the CHEF in our house. Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner.

Lepas ni nak ajar dia masak Lemak Kuning Ikan Terubuk Masin. Hihi. Wish me luck.